i just started choking on a bit of my own phlegm that had worked its way loose from the back of my nose (i'm recovering from a head cold and i'm still congested) 

it was scary and now i'm considering how i could die at any time really if it happened again and i was asleep or something and couldn't get up to dislodge it with the movement of my head 

i'm thinking about this but not really connecting to it because last night i realised that everyone around me is suffering from depression and i think it's because we're all artists 

that makes sense right

we're all artists and we're all depressed and we all have phlegm hanging from the back of our noses inside our throats and we've all woken up coughing at least once